yesung join shinee to perfrom at music bank today!!! WOOHOO!!!!!!!~~~!!! damn damn happy aft i heard this news. hahahah! n camped at com ever since! heehee!!!!

someone from shinee kana h1n1.. so yesung replaced him! YIPPEEEEE!!! nt say tt person kana is cool lah.. but they choose yesung to sing with shinee.... lead singer leh! wahahahhahahhahahahahahha! damn damn damn cool!

n shinee got first in music bank! YEAH! ahhahaha... yesung did a great job too lo. HAHA! =D love him! muahahhahaha





btw now holiday le. but still got tuition survey n clinic to go.. buzier than sch days. rarr!




argh YESUNG! <3

ahhahahah!!! yesung virus! totally stunned by wad i did today. i was v v v tired. den supposed to email my ic photo to do some card.e first time i forgot to attach. e 2nd time i sent in YESUNG's photo!!!!!!!!!!!! oh my god!!!! lucky i went to check e email again.. if nt realli pai seh!..den i quickly go sent in e 3rd time den okie.. =.= lame shit.. haahahah!!! but realli think of yesung too much liao! HAHAHHA!!! i think e person who receives my email will think im crazy. HAHA!

exam coming. din study yet. busy working. yttd go out at 6 plus.. work till 6 plus... n yet haven finish up... but dun care alr.. got tuition at night. i realli tried to fly dere asap... e parents still nt v happy. i keep on change timing..! but i cant help it...! I TRIED MY VERY BEST!

den this morning i went in to work damn early again. cos din finish up ytd's work... n lucky was dere early.! siao.. got new case n yet i dunno! prof forgot tell me! rush to do things yet again. n dun forget. TODAY IS PUBLIC HOLIDAY! N I GOT TO WORK!!! NO EXTRA PAY! WTH!


well.. onli yesung could brighten up my days.. seriously i can just stare at him for 5 hrs.. no need to eat also. =D HAHA!


tell me he is cute. i will be happy for whole day! so pls tell me tt when im down. thanks! HAHA! =D

oh n i wanna go thailand for their concert!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG>>> but leng, jiang those can go de all cant make it! tt time is their exam period. RARRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so so so so damn sad! can someone pls go with me...
argh. i got even think of going with fan club. but thailand leh.. sian. maybe wait for malaysia de... will try my best to go.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




its HOTNESS! woohooo


he is standing at the back. 2nd from right. HE IS CUTE RIGHT! =D


this is e best! love him! =D

long time din update... realli lazy.. haha!!

since sch started in july, i have been slacking all the way. haha.. tho i slept late at night, i wake up equally late in the morning. hahaa! slp 10 hrs stright is a norm. haha!!! but i felt there's sth missing in my life. everyday is pointless. there's no meaning to it. probably i was too free then i start to think all these! hahaha!!!...

but pretty busy right now, haha.. working at a clinic now. the doctor is part time, so i also part time. now there's a girl teaching me how to do the job. after that she will leave alr. rarrrr!!! alot things to learn. esp medical terms. i even think of them when dreaming.! haha.... bad pt abt this job is the timing are nt fixed. whenever there's patient, i have to go down. very ad-hoc, very last min. good thing is gd pay, can anyhow clock timesheet. =D hahahahha!

last few days. morning 7 go out. 11 den can reach home. got tuition at night n all... guess i have to get used to this soon!!!! for those who are working n studying at the same time, they are living a life like this too. 7 go out, 11 come back. =(

even tho im v tired, but i feel better than slacking. HAHA! controdicts. i feel at least there's sth i can do. nt just slackin n taking money from mum. haha!

rarr but i realli din care abt exams right now. i realli din study since sch start! im going to die terribly............ it's realli time to study!!! =.=

n i HATE PROJECTS!!! waste time sia.. cant learn things from it also! irritating..!

did i expect too much? did i think too highly of myself? im nt tt impt anyway isnt it...

i always think too much. way too much. sometimes i just hope i can stop thinking. but i just cant! how to control ur own mind? RARR!!! wanna keep myself busy. so tt i can stop thinking abt all e rubbish, but i have no motivation, no determination to do anything at all.

wad i do everyday is simply slacking. im a slackerrr. i have nth to do. lalala~

today is e 2nd time. i keep on telling myself its nth impt. why do u have to think so much abt this small matter. no one owe u anything. u r nt worth anyone to treat u so imptly. u r just nobody.

but nobody has got a life too isnt it? so considering a happy life n a sad life. i should choose happy isnt it. i can be happy. i can act to be happy. but am i realli happyy aft all? i can put up a strong cover. but im nt so strong. i need someone to be dere for me sometimes. i need listening ears. i need someone to lend me a shoulder to cry.

everytime im sad or confused, i always think why do we have to come to this world? what is e meaning to our life? what is e purpose for us to live everyday? why let us come n go? why nt just dun let us come to this world at all? den all e prob wun exist?

if we dun exist, there is no love. love, a very simple world, yet it means so much.

rarrr! emo again. hoho.. shall slp early n hope for a better day tmr...=D


p.s
i think my thursday disappeared. no more thursday for me. im nt angry, im just disappointed. actually i have no right to be angry also isnt it? maybe i should just heck abt it. let nature take its course.... maybe if i treat it lightly, things will get easy bahhh


just another rubbish post.ignore me.

had my first test in this semester. n i dun think i did well for it. cos i was really slacking all e way! rarrr!!! cant blame for my bad results. =(

isnt v happy recently. i just feel there's no purpose in life. I dun have anything to hope for. life just goes on like this. day by day passes.......... wonder is it im too free alr? so i have loads n loads of time to think rubbish. =.=

actually i have things to do. study. piano. tuition. lesson. friends. okie like nt much... haha... looking for more tuition assignments, but nt easy to find... RARRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!

why i am feeling so siannn. hoho... dunno wad pp r thinking.. i always misunderstand pp's intention isit? do i always think too much? i guess so... I should stop thinkinn... let nature take its course. RARRRRR its so difficult not to think abt it. have to force myself! hmph...!!!! WHY WHY WHY!!!???!! i feel so stupid for keep on waiting like this. haiz.

life has to go on. I know i shouldnt be like this. i know i should get myself a life. i know i have to jiayou. i know i have to find the purpose of my life. i know i shouldnt be wasting my life like this. I know I know!

i should watch lesser taiwan dramas, it realli make me stupid. hahaha!!!

taiwan dramas r always fairytale kind. n it will never be true. hahaha...

watch those thing will make me think alot, daydream alot! hahahaha..

tho i always stalk yesung, always make me daydream alot too!!! wahahha but well, cant resist! =D


sometimes i wish i noe wad pp r thinkin, dun like to guess. =.=


(hope thurs come soon) WAHAHA

just hope to do things according to my own pace.

i noe wads my limit. i noe wad i really want

pls pls PLS dun force me do things that i dun wanna do.

i wun be happy.

n if im being forced to do wad u ask me to do. i wun do it best

why cant you just understand!

just let me choose my path on my own. will u?

dun plan for me.

sometimes just dunno why im here in this world.

there's no meaning to it.

sad thing abt growing up

how i hope i will never grow up

when i were younger, i always hope to grow up faster

but when i am facing with the reality of being an adult

i hate growing up so much

pls stop forcing me

i feel that i cant breathe sometimes

im nt superman

reality of growing up

i hate it